Sunday, May 15, 2011
Psalms 77.....Hath God Forgotten to Be Gracious??
Today I HATE Satan. Some days the jealously monster rises up in me. I know (in my head) that we should not compare ourselves to other people (for me other stay-at-home moms who have many children or are pregnant, are amazing house keepers, and are a healthy weight, and have finished college). I know that our 'meter stick' is Christ. But sometimes Satan really wants to rub my nose in those things I am not. And he asks me if I REALLY believe God loves me. Lucifer lets himself in and curls up beside me. Whispering terrible whispers; "You are such a disappointment to God. Who could love one like you?You are too ugly, too outspoken, so lazy and useless. Doesn't God say that he protects the ones he loves??? God doesn't love you, Samantha, he wouldn't even save your son. He lets you wallow in this pain while the women he does love, abundantly have healthy babies. " Terrible whispers. And some days.... some moments.... like right now, I struggle to believe. But I will think on those things that are true. Truth will set me free of my unbelief.
Psalms 77
7 Will the Lord cast off for ever?
And will he be favorable no more?
8 Is his mercy clean gone for ever?
Doth his promise fail for evermore?
9 Hath God forgotten to be gracious?
Hath he in anger shut up his tender mercies? Selah.
10 And I said, This is my infirmity:
but I will remember the years of the right hand of the Most High.
11 I will remember the works of the LORD,
surely I will remember thy wonders of old.
12 I will meditate also of all thy work,
and talk of thy doings.
13 Thy way, O God, is in the sanctuary:
who is so great a God as our God?
14 Thou art the God that doest wonders:
thou hast declared thy strength among the people.
15 Thou hast with thine arm redeemed thy people,
the sons of Jacob and Joseph. Selah.
God is an everlasting God and sees the length of time much differently than I. God loves even me. God does not reluctantly love me, but with the full force of a hurricane. He is the knight in shining armor to my damsel in distress. God loves me with a love that crosses all boundaries - space, time, resources - to get to me, where ever I am.
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As my faith has matured over the years I have stopped looking at only the amazong feet that Jesus did for me. That He would die for me that He would suffer and endure all that is awestriking and humbling and puts me on my knees. However in the last few years I have begun to think just as much about what God did for us. The fact that He would send His only Son.... His only Son... not just into a fallen world where He could not protect His Son but into a world where He knew that His Son would suffer and die for me and you. That makes my heart clench to even begin to think about. I think He loves you so much and I think no one could understand you hurt better than our Heavenly Father. I love you and I am so sorry that the enemy is trying to steal your joy. You are God's PRECIOUS daughter and a precious woman and friend.
ReplyDeleteThank you :') Thank you for telling me. You might have to tell me again and again for some time. Thank you.
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